I. Understanding The Background Of Pam

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Hi! My name is Pamela S. Gatdula and you call me Pam for short.

Most of my friends call me Pam, some calls me Pamu and my family calls me Elay.

Pamu is a Japanese word for Pam and since I am greatly influenced by Japanese anime, I started using it when I was in high school. My close friends would even add Japanese honorifics like chan, chi, san, sama to make it more Japanese sounding and cuter.

Anyway, I am born on the 4th of April in 1998. So, I am currently 17 years old, but I mentally stopped counting when I was around 14 years old. That's why it still won't sink in to me that I'll be 18 in few months and I should be more matured and independent.

I am born and raised here in Manila. There are six people in my family and I am the third child of four children. My father is a business man who handles our family business and my mother is a typical housewife who takes a good care of us and the household. 

Just like any girl, I also dreamed of being a princess. My delusional mind sometimes imagines situations where I am a long lost princess in a faraway land. Little did I know that I really AM a princess.

I was a long lost princess until I was founded by my heavenly Father who is the king of kings and the lord of lords. That was one of the major events in my life that made me who I am today. My relationship with Him is the most important relationship I have.

Ever since I started learning more about my heavenly Father and I started spending more time with Him, I learned so much about myself as well. All of the questions I had when I was younger were all answered by Him. Now, I know who I am, what my stand is, what I stand for and the purpose of my existence.

I am the type of person who doesn't do things without its purpose. I don't really follow the trend unless I know and I like its purpose. I don't really experience peer pressure because of this and I couldn't careless of what they'll think of me. The most important opinion that I really care about is my heavenly Father's and my family's because they are the most important people in my life.

I'm also one of those people who don’t have a "best friend". 

I call and I get called by my friends "best friend", but I can never treat them like one. Mainly because I can't really open up my heart to other people no matter how long we have been friends. 

My only best friends are my parents. I can really tell them about anything without sugar coating what I have to say. When I am mad, I immediately tell my parents why and I don't really need to filter the words that'll come out of my mouth. They also give me the best advice that I know and I can fully trust that it's for my own good. After that, I'll feel so much better. I used to try telling my "best friend" who was my classmate about what's bugging me and after telling it to her; I only heard common comfort words which you can usually hear from dramas and movies. It didn't make me feel any better. I tried this multiple times with different people who I used consider my "best friend". 

That's when I knew that I am the kind of person who must stop considering one of my friends as my "best friend". It's okay if they'll consider me as their best friend but I must let them know that I won't be able to do the same. It'll only hurt them and I think they'll find it unfair that they share their secrets and problems to me, but I wouldn't be able to do the same.

Just like any other human being out there, I long to be someone who can and has accomplished a lot of things in life. I want to try different and unique jobs when I grow older like being a voice actress, a food critic and many more. That's just to name a few. I dream to travel and explore the world with my family. I wish to be able to speak in 3 or more foreign languages fluently. It is my heart’s desire to be able to play different all kinds of instruments like violin, harp, trumpet, euphonium and many more. I would love to have a house that has a transparent elevator in it. There are so many things I dream to accomplish that I wouldn't be able tell you all about.

When it comes to my hobbies, one of them is that I spend most of my time watching anime. Believe it or not, that's where I actually learned how to speak, read, write and understand Japanese. Since I always hear the language every day, my body started adapting to it and started using the words unconsciously. When I was in high school, I randomly speak in Japanese at home and in school, even to my teachers. But when I entered college, I am trying my best not to randomly speak the language because everyone will think it's weird and I doubt that somebody will understand.

I am hoping to enroll in a formal Japanese class in the near future. I fell in love with the language so much that I couldn't turn my back away from it.

I am also genuinely fond of music in general.

I usually listen to classical music, jazz, pop and RnB. I don't care what language was used in the song as long as there's something about it that was able to capture my heart.

Being able to play instruments is also what makes music very engaging and appealing. So far, I can play the piano, guitar, a little bit of drums and violin.

But the most amusing and enjoyable for me is singing. I wish to have a flexible voice where I can sing different genres especially classical and jazz. It has always been my dream to be a singer ever since I was a little kid. Unfortunately, I wasn't born with a great voice and it was a love-hate relationship with singing. In fact, I was even tone deaf then. It’s so sad, right? I tried running away from that dream many times more than I could even remember, but something is always pulling me back and before I know it, I am up chasing the same dream again.

By the grace of God, my voice started improving. I can proudly say that I sound way better than before and can do some techniques. I am not giving up on this dream of mine. It may seem impossible, but Jesus is my hope. He makes a way when there seems to be no way and with Him, nothing is impossible. He makes me limitless.
(You can check my soundcloud if you want see how much I improved from being tone deaf. haha feel free to leave a comment: https://soundcloud.com/pamelagatdula/say-something-cover)

Just in case, you are wondering why I am making this blog, I'll tell you the story behind it.

I am a freshman student taking up Tourism Management in Asia Pacific College and this blog is a requirement for my EEP Class.

I am not really into making blogs, but I can definitely say that I really enjoyed making this first ever blog I have ever done in my life. I'll be posting 15 blogs within the term and I hope you will appreciate and enjoy it as much as I do.